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My parents found about about my ED, and thus, they took me to the doctors

The doctor told my parents to take away my scale... so they did...

As an anorexic... I now feel blind...

I weighed more than 5 times everyday... I was a scale addict... 

Now... I miss my scale so much...

Which is why... I borrowed one from my neighbor...

Desperate times call for desperate measures....

I finally got to the double digits~ 



I'm so happy~ ^^ I hope I can be 95 by Halloween~  

Some thinspo for you...

I wonder how Nicole Richie went from 130 lbs to like... 80 lbs... But...  she sure did a good job... I wish I could weigh that less... 

Only a dream though... >_<

Height?: 5'2"
Weight?: 98 lbs, 45 kg 
Lowest Weight?: 98 (right now, I'm at my lowest weight)
Highest Weight?: 115
What weight do you want to weigh?: 80 lbs
What eating disorder do you have?: I skip meals, and try to keep calorie intake to a minimum. I have never purged before.

In Depth

How many calories do you eat in a day, on average?: Under 1000... but weekends... I binge to 1500... I hate myself >_<
Do you throw up your food on occasion?: No, I've tried, but I can't
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress?: Of course! I want to look like Nicole Richie or runway models.
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track?: No, I'm not very good at sports. But I try to do 200 sit-ups everyday
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight?: Yes...
Have you ever fasted? If so, for how how long? Yes, longest 5 days. I want to go more days though.
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories?: No.
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses?: Yeah, Nicole Richie, Victoria Beckham, and Mary-Kate Olsen.
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED?: No.
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting?: No.
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder?: No... but my mom has tried to.

Body Image Q's

Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not?: Of course!
What part of your body would you change?: Stomach, thighs, butt, arms... EVERYWHERE!
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body?: 2
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body?: Yeah!
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed?: Yes!
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses?: Yes!

Health/Food

Do you think you eat healthy enough?: No... I DO have an ED... don't I?
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs?: No... not really.
Fat grams?: Yes... a little bit.
Calories?: Of course!!!!!!
Are you often tired/fatigued?: Yes... I am.
Do you feel more energised after eating food?: Yeah... especially sugar and carbs...
Do you eat meat?: Yeah... but I want to be vegetarian.
Do you eat your food in a certain way? Yes, I separate it and cut it... I drink LOTS of water with my food, and eat very slowly.
Do people tell you you look sick or famished?: My mom has.
Have you ever thrown up blood?: No.
Is your heart bpm above 49?: What?
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating?: No.

Other Stuff

Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders?: Yes, I think it has. Especially on me.
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana?: It gives me people to connect and to communicate with.
Do you have any other mental disorders? Maybe...
What's your favourite food to eat?: Fruit... especially tangerines (30 calories!), jello, and Japanese nori seaweed. (10 calories for 8 pieces!)
Favourite drink?: Water, water, and WATER! Diet soda, tea, and did I mention WATER?
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED?: Of course! But... maybe I will grow fat if I don't have it.
Do you want to recover?: NOOOOOOO...